untitled

from the skin of souls
you create your words
you scrape together pieces
of life energy
of buttons and notebook paper fragments
to patch a landscape
and you won't stop
until they start crying.

one day sunshine

one day I'll tell you
that I count the spaces in between your words
and hope that someday
you'll pay attention to mine.

one day I'll let my insecurites go
and tell you what exactly I meant to say
that one time
that one place
you remember?

one day I'll tell you
the minute I knew I liked you more
than I had felt before
the minute your words started dancing as you talked
the minute my heart leaped at your name

one day sunshine
but it's still not that day.

uncertainty

i am awake
awake
in the arms of uncertainty
fondled by grief and unreliability.
my nights are cold
sweaters and blankets
cannot be bundled
cannot be rolled.
i will not fall asleep
not give in
to close my eyes
and fall into the deep.
if i close my eyes
i might
just
fall
asleep.

months

times time times new roman font
staring across a computer screen
the only light I see
the only only company...

my days now turn into hours
hours spent in between pages
written about dead white men I could care less about.

the hours in between pages
swiftly turn to weeks
weeks to months
months of knowledge
months of paper
months of so-called learning
but only weeks
of creating.

no title

pumpkin spice is nice
with cinnamon scented dreams that will certainly follow
but I find happiness
buried somewhere deeper
than in your cup of coffee
or swirling in my cup of tea

to live & always dream

frantic music behind sad bare sky
sweat & rust summer
what delicate shadow
I read beneath eternity
my forest bed
say only as beauty is
you are love

the night air breathes
courage into my lungs
life within my breast.
the future around me
swirls like the clouds in my coffee
ideas and life
flitting and flirting in and out
of consciousness...


i am awake in the arms of circumstance.

to my daughter, if I ever have one

someday you will be beautiful, daughter
beautiful not only in outward appearance but in inner depth
beautiful in words and speech
beautiful in your thoughts
beautiful in what you dream
everything you are will be beautiful, daughter.

you will be strong.

you will be unique.

you will be everything that your mother cannot be.